Yeah, I kinda went nuts yesterday with the Chibis ^^
( On this page: Chibi Tony Stark, Chibi Stephanie Brown, Chibi Pepper and Tony, Chibi Namor, Chibi Toro, Chibi Captain America, Chibi Norman Osborn, and Mary Marvel )
( On this page: Chibi Winter Soldier and Chibi Jason Todd, Chibi Ginny/Harry, Chibi Bucky/Toro, Chibi Luna, Chibi Remus, and Chibi Toro and Chibi Jim )
( ON this page: Non Chibis, You get Remus/Tonks, Young Peter and Sirius, Harry/Hermione, and Snape )
AND FINALLY!
This is so so so so becoming a print. I hope.
( Sorta Chibi!Batman, Superman, and all the Robins- this is the Chibi Jason todd trying to kill Chibi Tim Drake picture that amused me so much yesterday )
( On this page: Chibi Tony Stark, Chibi Stephanie Brown, Chibi Pepper and Tony, Chibi Namor, Chibi Toro, Chibi Captain America, Chibi Norman Osborn, and Mary Marvel )
( On this page: Chibi Winter Soldier and Chibi Jason Todd, Chibi Ginny/Harry, Chibi Bucky/Toro, Chibi Luna, Chibi Remus, and Chibi Toro and Chibi Jim )
( ON this page: Non Chibis, You get Remus/Tonks, Young Peter and Sirius, Harry/Hermione, and Snape )
AND FINALLY!
This is so so so so becoming a print. I hope.
( Sorta Chibi!Batman, Superman, and all the Robins- this is the Chibi Jason todd trying to kill Chibi Tim Drake picture that amused me so much yesterday )
I took a small sketch book with me to comic con (5X 7-ish, smaller = lighter in my bag) because I knew I'd want to sketch while waiting in lines and such.
Here's most of the pages I sketched. A few aren't here, but they werne't worth scanning.
( Sketches, Original, Snape(s), Harry, Hermione, Draco, Ron, Buck(s), Toro(s), Steve, and Jake Chambers, All G rated )
Here's most of the pages I sketched. A few aren't here, but they werne't worth scanning.
( Sketches, Original, Snape(s), Harry, Hermione, Draco, Ron, Buck(s), Toro(s), Steve, and Jake Chambers, All G rated )
Yes, I still sketch HP fanart ^^
This is one of the sketches that was/is going into the ashcan sketchbook I'm working to create. It won't be done in time for Azkatraz, but maybe the next convention. I will get it done though!
Preview:

( Snape Loves Lily )
I've got a lot more, but this one was just adorable, and since the sketchbook won't be out anytime soon, I figured I'd post this sketch ^__^
Art garage Sale
I'm trying to sell off a lot of my art very cheap. All prices are negotiable, check it out!
This is one of the sketches that was/is going into the ashcan sketchbook I'm working to create. It won't be done in time for Azkatraz, but maybe the next convention. I will get it done though!
Preview:
( Snape Loves Lily )
I've got a lot more, but this one was just adorable, and since the sketchbook won't be out anytime soon, I figured I'd post this sketch ^__^
Art garage Sale
I'm trying to sell off a lot of my art very cheap. All prices are negotiable, check it out!
this is for someone specific but I can't say who yet.
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: MWPP
Rating: G
Media: Watercolor

( Frolic )
Fandom: Harry Potter
Characters: MWPP
Rating: G
Media: Watercolor

( Frolic )
So I'm not sure I'm gonna get any fandom Xmas art out this year :(
We shall see. I'm mean there's still time, I'm just kinda swamped with gift art ^^;;
But for fun, I thought I'd collect all the Harry Potter Christmas Art I'd done from over the years:
The years might be a little off, but I think this is pretty correct.
2003
( MWPP+L+S dress as characters from A Christmas Carol )
( Lily, James, and Baby Harry )
2004
( Peter's Christmas )
( MWPP on a roof )
( MWPP + House elves )
2005
( Harry, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Neville, Luna, Draco )
2006
( Snape LOVES the Holiday )
2007
( Andromeda, Narcissa, Bellatrix, and little Sirius )
( MWPPL+Tonks+Baby Harry )
We shall see. I'm mean there's still time, I'm just kinda swamped with gift art ^^;;
But for fun, I thought I'd collect all the Harry Potter Christmas Art I'd done from over the years:
The years might be a little off, but I think this is pretty correct.
2003
( MWPP+L+S dress as characters from A Christmas Carol )
( Lily, James, and Baby Harry )
2004
( Peter's Christmas )
( MWPP on a roof )
( MWPP + House elves )
2005
( Harry, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Neville, Luna, Draco )
2006
( Snape LOVES the Holiday )
2007
( Andromeda, Narcissa, Bellatrix, and little Sirius )
( MWPPL+Tonks+Baby Harry )
What? You didn't think I'd abandoned Harry Potter fanart did you?
Title Places not to Go
Characters Sirius and Remus
Rating G
( Places not to go, but Sirius does anyway )
Title Places not to Go
Characters Sirius and Remus
Rating G
( Places not to go, but Sirius does anyway )
( I did some Sharpie Sketches at work today: Harry Potter, Battlestar Galactica, and Usagi Yojimbo )
I really enjoy just working with a sharpie. The line variation kinda sucks, but it's very interesting to have no ability to erase and just build something up.
I usually start with the eyes btw.
I really enjoy just working with a sharpie. The line variation kinda sucks, but it's very interesting to have no ability to erase and just build something up.
I usually start with the eyes btw.
ETa Typo fixed. Thanks to Brandon for calling it out ^^;;
Ok a quick sketch I did ages ago, remember that Meme where you drew a character in what you were wearing that day? Yeah I drew James one day and Lily the next, so both of these outfits I own.
I really hastily (REALLY HASTILY) colored this in waiting on some X-rays to come back (not mine).

Click to see the larger version.
So yeah James lost a bet to Lily. I had to have some reason why he's in drag.
James's outfit, by the way, is authentic 70's clothes that I got from an Aunt =P
Ok a quick sketch I did ages ago, remember that Meme where you drew a character in what you were wearing that day? Yeah I drew James one day and Lily the next, so both of these outfits I own.
I really hastily (REALLY HASTILY) colored this in waiting on some X-rays to come back (not mine).
Click to see the larger version.
So yeah James lost a bet to Lily. I had to have some reason why he's in drag.
James's outfit, by the way, is authentic 70's clothes that I got from an Aunt =P
Ack! Sorry the Portus Post is so long in coming. Thing is I want to make it with my Photos and I can't get my Photos off my digital Camera. I lost the UPS card. I have an external memory card reader but . . . I can't get my memory card out of my camera *blush*
BUT! What I can post is Artwork! Yay!
Except . . . ARGHHH I failed to scan the art I was GIVEN this morning *Cry*
So this is Portus Art Post Part 1 now, in which I post my own doodles.
When I get home I'll upload my page O' doodles and Makani's Peter. Not how I wanted it but I'm tired of not posting Portus things.
So here's what I sketched at Portus (usually these were sketched there, and colored at home, or in one case totally re-modified at home)
( LILY RUN!: Sharpie and colored pencil sketch )
( EVERYBODY Loved Portus: Aka Sam Anders and Kara Thrace dress as Tonks and Remus: Colored Pencil sketch )
( Apollo and Starbuck Stickies: Technical Pen )
Ok so that's all the art I did at or relating to Portus.
Not as much as TWH, but then I didn't have as much down time as TWH.
Actually, my one big regret of the convention is not getting more art done but especially not getting more art from other people.
I missed passing the sketchbook around and getting doodles from everyone as we did at The Witching hour. Due to time constraints and all, I didn't get a lot of art :(
However If you painted at my presentation or have one of my sketches, link me! I wanna see!
Notices:
You can purchase some the artwork I did for Portus here. This sale last only until 8/15/2008 or until supplies run out. Which ever happens first.
If you EVER contacted me about being in the HP-Art-Porject PLEASE check this link to see if I'm waiting to hear from you The waiting list is alo VERY open.
BUT! What I can post is Artwork! Yay!
Except . . . ARGHHH I failed to scan the art I was GIVEN this morning *Cry*
So this is Portus Art Post Part 1 now, in which I post my own doodles.
When I get home I'll upload my page O' doodles and Makani's Peter. Not how I wanted it but I'm tired of not posting Portus things.
So here's what I sketched at Portus (usually these were sketched there, and colored at home, or in one case totally re-modified at home)
( LILY RUN!: Sharpie and colored pencil sketch )
( EVERYBODY Loved Portus: Aka Sam Anders and Kara Thrace dress as Tonks and Remus: Colored Pencil sketch )
( Apollo and Starbuck Stickies: Technical Pen )
Ok so that's all the art I did at or relating to Portus.
Not as much as TWH, but then I didn't have as much down time as TWH.
Actually, my one big regret of the convention is not getting more art done but especially not getting more art from other people.
I missed passing the sketchbook around and getting doodles from everyone as we did at The Witching hour. Due to time constraints and all, I didn't get a lot of art :(
However If you painted at my presentation or have one of my sketches, link me! I wanna see!
Notices:
You can purchase some the artwork I did for Portus here. This sale last only until 8/15/2008 or until supplies run out. Which ever happens first.
If you EVER contacted me about being in the HP-Art-Porject PLEASE check this link to see if I'm waiting to hear from you The waiting list is alo VERY open.
- Mood:
dorky
PRINT SALE
Until August 15th or I run out. Which ever comes first (except for Luna, who is and always has been a DA print, though she's cheaper here!)
My prints sold fantastically at Portus (I love everyone who bought one. You’ve no idea how awesome that was. I’ve never really considered my work saleable before that Saturday night, yes my artistic ego does not extending to marketing. ^^)
HOWEVER, yes there were many prints that were left over, so, due to requests, yes I'll sell what did not sell at Portus here.
Black And White Character Prints
Image here
Each Character is a separate card
Size: Each card is about 5 X 7
Quantity: Bellatrix (39); Lucius(35); Sirius (36); Peter (42; Remus (35); James (36); Lily (36); Snape (24)
Cost: The are $4.00 each + $1.00 shipping/handling/paypal fee
The whole set of eight(8)is $30.00 and that includes shipping
These are limited editions, once they are sell out, they are gone for good.
Small Luna Prints
Image here
Quantity: 5 with the border are left
6 without the border are left
Size: About 4 3/4 X 6 1/4 w/out border
About 5 X 6 3/4 with white border
Cost: These are 5.00 each + $ 1.00 shipping/handling/paypal fee
Let me know what you’d like.
(By the by a 4 X 5 print is 6.50 on DA)
Because it is on DA this is not a limited edition print:
Large Color Prints
Image here Image here Image here
Size: Each is 8.5 X 11
Quantity: Luna+Neville (8); Luna (5); Hermione+McCoy (9)
Cost:The are $12.00 ea ch +$ 1.00 shipping/handling/paypal fee
The whole set of three (3) is 35.00 and that includes shipping/handling/paypal fee
Please note
The Neville+ Luna print is a limited edition print
The Hermione+ Jack McCoy (of Law and Order) is a limited edition prints
Luna is NOT a limited edition.
She is for sale on DA for 15.00, but she’s more there. And I get less :(
Original Watercolor (NOT a print!)
Image Here (Only Ginny and Sirius (last two in bottom row) are still available)
Size: 5.5 X 7.7
Cost: These are $45.00 each and the price includes shipping/handling/paypal fee
It is $80.00 for both and the price includes shipping/handling/paypal fee
I’ll post more details about exactly how many of each are left when I get home and can count that out but I can tell you know, Snape sold like a friggen hotcake, so there’s gonna be the least left of him (seriously I shoulda just brought all Snape art work!)
how to order and pay
If you are interested in purchasing any of these please send an e-mail to
kcrenshaw(dot)designs(at)gmail(dot)com <--- see new e-mail just for art sales!
Please include:
"Print order" in the subject line
What you are ordering
Your Mailing address
I can only accept Paypal at this time, I'm sorry :(
ETA I will also take money orders!!
So in conclusion
Please, buy my art! Help me afford my wedding ^__^
- Mood:
hopeful
These are eight separate cards 7/12 by 5 inches. I don't know how much I'll be selling 'em for. I do know I'll sell individuals and then a few sets for slightly cheaper than if you bought one of each (because that is how sets work right =P). Not even sure yet how many I'll make. Depends on what I can afford versus what I think I can sell. They'll be on card stock paper.
Kinda excited. I've never done this before ^__^
Oh and yeah they are exclusive to Portus.
You know I draw the initial sketches for these almost 3 years ago? They needed some tuning up (especially James OMG James looked AWFUL). It was kinda interesting comparing the old sketches to the tune ups. I figured tuning these up was way faster than whole knew pictures!
I've got 4 more actually, but they were so generic I figured I couldn't explain who they were without infringing on a trademark =P
I think the ones above are generic enough that I'm not infringing on a trademark (which means I can have them in the Art Swap), but at the same time an HP fan can guess who I might have been inspired by ^__^
- Mood:
accomplished
I just spent from 9:30 am to 1:00 pm working on the Hp Art Project.
*collapse*
Now I have to work on my Watercolor Workshop for Portus.
If I hadn't already worked on it, I'd almost want to pull out I'm so frazzled, but what the heck I can babble about watercolor and it'll be fun. It's mostly demonstration anyway. And I only feel like that right now because of STRESS.
I need to go buy the paper and chop it up and I need to make sure the cheap-o watercolors work will enough to have them at the demo to be played with.
I did finish some examples of paintings painted with specific watercolor techniques.
( Watercolor Technique Examples in the form of: Remus, Tonks, Lily, Snape, Luna, Neville, Ginny, and Sirius )
These are 8 separate pieces, and the originals will actually be fore sale at the watercolor presentation if you want one. They 10.00. at the workshop.
They'll 15.00 at the art swap (unless the Portus team determines they are not general enough, but hopefully they are ^^). Yes, yes I am kinda bribing people to come to my watercolor demo? Why?
Also, is anyone else gonna be in Swap at Portus?
*collapse*
Now I have to work on my Watercolor Workshop for Portus.
If I hadn't already worked on it, I'd almost want to pull out I'm so frazzled, but what the heck I can babble about watercolor and it'll be fun. It's mostly demonstration anyway. And I only feel like that right now because of STRESS.
I need to go buy the paper and chop it up and I need to make sure the cheap-o watercolors work will enough to have them at the demo to be played with.
I did finish some examples of paintings painted with specific watercolor techniques.
( Watercolor Technique Examples in the form of: Remus, Tonks, Lily, Snape, Luna, Neville, Ginny, and Sirius )
These are 8 separate pieces, and the originals will actually be fore sale at the watercolor presentation if you want one. They 10.00. at the workshop.
They'll 15.00 at the art swap (unless the Portus team determines they are not general enough, but hopefully they are ^^). Yes, yes I am kinda bribing people to come to my watercolor demo? Why?
Also, is anyone else gonna be in Swap at Portus?
A collection of doodles I've done at work (and sometimes messed with in PS)
You have from left to right, Baby Apollo, Peter, Ginny on top then on buttom, Apollo, Harry, Remus, Another Baby Apollo, and Starbuck.
(click to see a larger image)

Also:
Band of Brothers makes an interesting radio show.
*sigh* I can't get pictures on my computer so I just listened to it as a collaged all that in photoshop.
I am imagining the Dickwad Captain to look like Ross (from Friends).
You have from left to right, Baby Apollo, Peter, Ginny on top then on buttom, Apollo, Harry, Remus, Another Baby Apollo, and Starbuck.
(click to see a larger image)
Also:
Band of Brothers makes an interesting radio show.
*sigh* I can't get pictures on my computer so I just listened to it as a collaged all that in photoshop.
I am imagining the Dickwad Captain to look like Ross (from Friends).
Oh my gosh! Can it be YES! I actually finished some Harry Potter fanart.
Title Summer Girl
Fandom Harry Potter
Rating G
Character Lily Potter
Media Watercolor and india ink
Notes I waffled between this being Ginny or Lily, and I still think it looks a bit more Ginny-ish than Lily-ish (which is why she has freckles) but the green eyes stand out so much I'm going with Lily. I think (the file name says Ginny though so really I'm still waffeling *L*)
( Summer Girl )
And here is an abandoned prep sketch for this. This is Lily, but IMHO the sketch was a little boring. Sweet but boring.
( Sketch of Lily Potter )
Btw, I used photos of my younger sister as a model for both portraits.
My younger sister is my official Lily model.
Title Summer Girl
Fandom Harry Potter
Rating G
Character Lily Potter
Media Watercolor and india ink
Notes I waffled between this being Ginny or Lily, and I still think it looks a bit more Ginny-ish than Lily-ish (which is why she has freckles) but the green eyes stand out so much I'm going with Lily. I think (the file name says Ginny though so really I'm still waffeling *L*)
( Summer Girl )
And here is an abandoned prep sketch for this. This is Lily, but IMHO the sketch was a little boring. Sweet but boring.
( Sketch of Lily Potter )
Btw, I used photos of my younger sister as a model for both portraits.
My younger sister is my official Lily model.
- Mood:
tired
First off, thank you so much to everyone who congratulated me. I haven't had the opportunity to sit down and thank everyone personally, but I thought I should at least say somethign right now.
Seriously guys *hugs* thank you so much!
Jumping topics. I was cleaning my room recently and going through my old sketch books. I found some old art that I thought would be kinda fun to post.
( I have your Photograph:MWPP Sketch )
( Party: MWPP Sketch )
( Two Pages of an Abandoned Comic )
Seriously guys *hugs* thank you so much!
Jumping topics. I was cleaning my room recently and going through my old sketch books. I found some old art that I thought would be kinda fun to post.
( I have your Photograph:MWPP Sketch )
( Party: MWPP Sketch )
( Two Pages of an Abandoned Comic )
- Mood:
chipper
I Got my 7th BSG comic out OMG! 7 weeks of BSG comic and uhhh I think I only missed getting it out on two of 'em. For me that great. And I think the lettering is getting better. And layouts. It's fun.
I look to Calvin and Hobbes and Penny Arcade for layout/lettering inspiration on this one. I think though . . . I need tosteal buy Adobe Illustrator. Photoshop is not made for lettering.
And now some Harry Potter fanart:
Character: Remus and Tonks
Rating: G
Notes: Two seperate sketches that I just put together on one sketch sheet and I fooled with in photoshop. Did i mention i like ddrawing tonks? yeah, I do. ^__^
( Two characters I like that make my favorite canonicle couple, but this isn't really shippy art )
I look to Calvin and Hobbes and Penny Arcade for layout/lettering inspiration on this one. I think though . . . I need to
And now some Harry Potter fanart:
Character: Remus and Tonks
Rating: G
Notes: Two seperate sketches that I just put together on one sketch sheet and I fooled with in photoshop. Did i mention i like ddrawing tonks? yeah, I do. ^__^
( Two characters I like that make my favorite canonicle couple, but this isn't really shippy art )
- Mood:
indescribable
My April Fool's Fanart for Fictionalley.Org ^__^
I've got a larger version, which is why I initialled hadn't uploaded, but . . it looks the same . . pretty much. This was made to be small (fit the FA banner) so in this case of this picture, large isn't exactly grea, I realized
( Marauders Spoofing the A-Team, G )
I've got a larger version, which is why I initialled hadn't uploaded, but . . it looks the same . . pretty much. This was made to be small (fit the FA banner) so in this case of this picture, large isn't exactly grea, I realized
( Marauders Spoofing the A-Team, G )
Ok that was so much fun for Battlestar lets also collect all my Harry Potter comics done over the years.
( 16 strips, 3 multipage comics )
Three Page Peter and Regulus Comic: Become
Unletterd 9 Page MWPP comic
5 Page comic: Dandelion Wishes
OMG! THIS IS SO OLD!!!
So yup, that's everything I could find with text in it for Harry Potter
errr . . . except on 20 page completed Snape and Peter comic based on the fanfic 'Bargians' by Gehayi, which AFAK, is still slated to go into a fanzine, by Chupa, but I don't know when, but she asked us not to publically post 'em until it's printed.
ETA, Aside from the ammitedly attention whoring look tthe last two posts have, I'm really kinda proud because I hadn't realized I'd done all of these over the years (and BSG) and one thing that hold me back from a fanzine is thinking of the work and so these two posts are kinda up to go LOOK STUPID you practically ALREADY have both an HP AND a BSG fanzine, you just need to bloody lay it out, or if you don't like the *really* old HP stuff, do new stuff, but you do so make enough stuff to warrent a cute fanzine *kicks own butt*
( 16 strips, 3 multipage comics )
Three Page Peter and Regulus Comic: Become
Unletterd 9 Page MWPP comic
5 Page comic: Dandelion Wishes
OMG! THIS IS SO OLD!!!
So yup, that's everything I could find with text in it for Harry Potter
errr . . . except on 20 page completed Snape and Peter comic based on the fanfic 'Bargians' by Gehayi, which AFAK, is still slated to go into a fanzine, by Chupa, but I don't know when, but she asked us not to publically post 'em until it's printed.
ETA, Aside from the ammitedly attention whoring look tthe last two posts have, I'm really kinda proud because I hadn't realized I'd done all of these over the years (and BSG) and one thing that hold me back from a fanzine is thinking of the work and so these two posts are kinda up to go LOOK STUPID you practically ALREADY have both an HP AND a BSG fanzine, you just need to bloody lay it out, or if you don't like the *really* old HP stuff, do new stuff, but you do so make enough stuff to warrent a cute fanzine *kicks own butt*
Sketch Commissions are done
You know those Commissons I took a bit more than a year ago . .. I actually
finished 'em, which means I will finally mail 'em out, if people still want to pay for 'em.
I can't apologize enough that it took this long to get these out, and really I have no excuse other than once mom helped me out financially, I just kept putting these off. *sigh*
But I have actually finished 'em.
For
glockgal( Eddie, Jake, and Oy )
For
jadis31( One Picture of Percy and One Picture of MWPP )
For
mieronna( Tom riddle )
For
rakina( Snape and Harry )
For
bekkio( Hermioen Packign her Trunk )
For
karitawyr( Sirius and Harry )
For
wellington( Two Original Characters )
For
paranoidsistah( One picutre of Aberforth and Mungungus and one of Fluer/Tonks )
For
karasu_hime( Snape/Remus NC-17: NOT WORK SAFE )
Now this is embaressing. I think this was meant as a christmas present, I totally missed the deadline period, and I can't find my original notes to figure out why commissioned it. I don't think it was paid for.
With smaller commissions like this,I usually don't take money until I am finished with the art; however, if it was, please let me know and I will refund it, if you want.
For ? ( Slughorn and Dumbledore )
Ok so that should clear up most of my commissions left over from last year. If anyone has paid for a commission and either never got the art or never got their money back *please* tell me. I think I've gotten all the sketch commissions done and I've refunded the one none sketch commission which I'm pretty sure was eaten by the post office (which would be This one, god bless the US mail -_-)
As for none sketch commissions, so far as I know, only two of these went unfinsihed:
birgitriddleI'm still have yours half done, let me know though if you are still interested in it.
bodgei are you still interested in a commission at all? I can't find that I ever got starte on your -_-
I think that clear up every commission I fell on my face on last year or so. Please let me know though if I overlooked something.
Again, my apologies. I usually try and get commissions done with in two to four months, and that just did not happen with these. Nor have I *ever* missed a deadline before, not even with school, so I'm really embarressed about all this. *head desk*
And also because of this, I'm now closed for any future commissions until i figure out a way to sort out what happened and make sure I never flake like this again -_-
You know those Commissons I took a bit more than a year ago . .. I actually
finished 'em, which means I will finally mail 'em out, if people still want to pay for 'em.
I can't apologize enough that it took this long to get these out, and really I have no excuse other than once mom helped me out financially, I just kept putting these off. *sigh*
But I have actually finished 'em.
For
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Now this is embaressing. I think this was meant as a christmas present, I totally missed the deadline period, and I can't find my original notes to figure out why commissioned it. I don't think it was paid for.
With smaller commissions like this,I usually don't take money until I am finished with the art; however, if it was, please let me know and I will refund it, if you want.
For ? ( Slughorn and Dumbledore )
Ok so that should clear up most of my commissions left over from last year. If anyone has paid for a commission and either never got the art or never got their money back *please* tell me. I think I've gotten all the sketch commissions done and I've refunded the one none sketch commission which I'm pretty sure was eaten by the post office (which would be This one, god bless the US mail -_-)
As for none sketch commissions, so far as I know, only two of these went unfinsihed:
I think that clear up every commission I fell on my face on last year or so. Please let me know though if I overlooked something.
Again, my apologies. I usually try and get commissions done with in two to four months, and that just did not happen with these. Nor have I *ever* missed a deadline before, not even with school, so I'm really embarressed about all this. *head desk*
And also because of this, I'm now closed for any future commissions until i figure out a way to sort out what happened and make sure I never flake like this again -_-